justalilkink

Contrary to past journals, life is going pretty good right now. Been going to the gym, trying to eat better, cutting back on certain foods. Got my permit for the first time ever, my boyfriend is sticking around for awhile. Could be making more money work wise, but for the moment it is not a big issue. Stressful? Yes. Not life hindering. Yet. LIfe is going good though. Can't wait to see what the next few months will be like.

Gnawing hopelessness deep inside eating everything it comes in contact with writhing inside emotionless mask outside all life from eyes have flickered out and yet the heart still beats but no will to go on. I'd rather live with false hope then none at all. Take away a persons hope and you just gutted them. Leaving them gaping, bleeding, and bare. Congrats on taking a human life and leaving nothing but the empty shell. "I just want you to be happy." and yet you kill the thing you love.

Haven't been posting too much up here in the past few months. Things have been hectic and I have been working a lot. My camera also took an unfortunate dive to the concrete during a party in the early summer, so only pics I have taken previously will be submitted for now. Also, I promised my friend I would put the link to his recording studio on multiple sites to get him some exposure, so check it out: http://www.facebook.com/Marstenhouserecording